She sometimes feels like she’s a terrible person with an ego that makes her look so strong yet breaks her from the inside.
She misses people. She misses those who she doesn’t talk to anymore. She hates that people who meant so much to her left her because her ego kept her from letting them know she valued them. She hates how things end every time! The way she goes on from knowing so much to feeling like she never knew the person standing in front of her. She hates how she closes herself off the moment she feels like someone’s drifting away from her instead of reaching out.
She hates how she can’t tell you that your silence, your indifference is emptying her from inside. She hates how everything ends so abruptly. She hates feeling this way. She cares, she cares a lot, but you would never know because her ego is in the way. All she wishes for is she knew how to break her ego. She wishes she knew how to break her walls down, to not be afraid all of the time, to not be so unsure of everything.
She wishes she knew because she can see you walking away from her, she can feel you drifting away, and she should run after you but her feet are holding her back. She’s waiting for you to look back once. Because if you do, she is sure She will run to the only place she wants to be- with you.
But if you don’t, she will walk away. And once she walks away nothing will be able to take her back to you.